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stupid mf

Fri Jul 11, 2008, 5:49 PM
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: msi "stupid mf"
  • Reading: Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs by Klosterman
  • Watching: the rocky horror picture show
  • Playing: i'm going to fucking stab myself.
  • Eating: my brains
  • Drinking: my blood//rat poison
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

why am i so stupid???

why don't obvious things occur to me???

i'm so goddamned headstrong that, of course, i couldn't both thinking about whether or not he was single.

i make myself sick.

jesus christ. i couldn't think how someone so awesome couldn't be taken. no, no, no.

holy shit.

either they're taken, over in the uk, oblivious, or just not fucking interested.

this goddamn hurts.

but, as usual, is just my. own. fucking. fault.

i mean, holy shit.

until then.
:heart:?, aidyn.

((ps: i'm the stupid mf. because i can't figure shit out. not him. never him.))

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~teh-feckerer:iconteh-feckerer: Jul 11, 2008, 5:52:39 PM
So this guy you wer seeing wasn't single? That's shit....

Explain more :( Hope it sorts itself out.... Worry about my lil sis :P

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Lets talk about Fecks
~Anami-Kumo:iconAnami-Kumo: Jul 11, 2008, 5:58:59 PM
aw, hun.
not your fault.
he didn't give off the vibes, huh?
:hug:

--
"i see your hearts gets bigger when you lose your friends.
and everyone's around you saying that it's not the end."
- the ready set.
~mascaraCoverStorie:iconmascaraCoverStorie: Jul 11, 2008, 5:59:25 PM
It's not that I was seeing him, but I knew him from a year ago, back when I had a boyfriend, so obviously I wasn't like, hey he's kind of cute. Of course, when I saw him again this year... he was kind of cute. And judging from the way he'd been acting toward me earlier in the week gave me hope that I might actually have a chance.

Then today, he was talking about how this weekend he might go out on a date, so that kind of... deflated me, I guess? :[

Don't worry about me, though. Really. I'll work through it, just like I worked through the fact that I'm probably not going to see my Welsh boy ever again, unless nexxxt summer works out. Thanks for your concern though. :]


--
Or do we all
Look. Just. Like:

Adolf fucking Hitler
With this swoopy emo-boy dreamy haircut
Dangling in our faces
Making us all indescribably indistinguishable from each other

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...
~mascaraCoverStorie:iconmascaraCoverStorie: Jul 11, 2008, 6:02:18 PM
No, babe. He didn't. Kept talking to me and being painfully sweet.

But it is my fault, though. I should have been able to keep my barriers up. Not get too deep in.

I don't know how I'm going to take the nexxxt two weeks. Especially because I'm going to have to do a one-on-one scene with him when everything's said and done at the performance.

:cling:


--
Or do we all
Look. Just. Like:

Adolf fucking Hitler
With this swoopy emo-boy dreamy haircut
Dangling in our faces
Making us all indescribably indistinguishable from each other

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...
~teh-feckerer:iconteh-feckerer: Jul 11, 2008, 6:06:32 PM
Hmmm usually guys talk about dates to make you feel challenged and see your reaction. If you blush or go quite it jus kinda shows you're interested. It's the way they work. They're idiots ;)Stick with the idea, maybe even ask him out. It sounds like it could be a good one.

I know this sounds harsh, although Welsh Guys made a big impression in 4 months time you'll barely remember him. It's the way these things go, holiday romances always run out eventually. But still, if you can get out next summer. DO IT. Who knows where it might lead :)

Take care Meg :)

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Lets talk about Fecks
Mood: Compassion ~Frozen-Snowflake:iconFrozen-Snowflake: Jul 11, 2008, 6:08:35 PM
Needless to say, shit happens.
Just have wad through it.
:hug:

Though having someone else to blame is always more fun. lol

take care darl
:heart:

--
“Whatever our struggles & triumphs, however we may suffer them,
All too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on a paper."
~mascaraCoverStorie:iconmascaraCoverStorie: Jul 11, 2008, 6:09:56 PM
Ah, no, he didn't say it directly to me, it was just kind of a thing he said in front of everyone at the camp, like "yea, this is what I'm doing this weekend." And anyway, I suck at rejection. You have no idea. So if he really was taken, well then, that would be hell on wheels.

It doesn't sound harsh. It's good. A reality check. Thanks. :]


--
Or do we all
Look. Just. Like:

Adolf fucking Hitler
With this swoopy emo-boy dreamy haircut
Dangling in our faces
Making us all indescribably indistinguishable from each other

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...
~mascaraCoverStorie:iconmascaraCoverStorie: Jul 11, 2008, 6:11:39 PM
Oh, I know shit happens. I'm just prone to walking right into it. :]

Well... since I'm blaming myself...

Thank you. :hug: <3


--
Or do we all
Look. Just. Like:

Adolf fucking Hitler
With this swoopy emo-boy dreamy haircut
Dangling in our faces
Making us all indescribably indistinguishable from each other

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...
~Frozen-Snowflake:iconFrozen-Snowflake: Jul 11, 2008, 6:24:08 PM
wade*

--
“Whatever our struggles & triumphs, however we may suffer them,
All too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on a paper."
=MyDeadliestPesticide:iconMyDeadliestPesticide: Jul 11, 2008, 6:39:36 PM
:hug: Well, I've found 99% of guys to be useless anyway. Don't beat yourself up over it. He probably wasn't worth it anyway. I mean, even if he was single, he probably wouldn't have been worth it...

--
"There’s got to be something in between,
Something they‘ve missed, something unseen."
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