(let's make this a game. You choose what I am.) :]

I've got so much to say...

but no words to say it with.

School.

I'm free on June 4th. It's a bit odd to fathom, yes, even though I've said it before. It's just... wow. This year has been different from the rest, and I don't think I would've had it any other way. I'm still learning. All the time. And I think the people I've come to love and trust have helped me greatly. <3 (They always do.) I'm still a freakish introvert, but it keeps me where I like to be: people-watching and learning why they do what they do. (Not that I learn WHY most of the time. I just watch. And wish I knew.) I'm a bit of a harmless observer, still? ...a bit of a wallflower, I suppose.

Hey.

I love the fact that you still bothered to care, even when I didn't want you to. ( "Hey, you. Thanks for being there for me today... your arms around me, keeping me together. You really do make me feel like I'm the world. <3" 27 - 05 - 09) YOU have been so nice and so supportive to me all this year, even if we didn't really know each other much at the beginning. Turns out you stuck around and you've helped me through even the stupidest of things. It's funny what a year can bring... :]

And of course.

Mah friends keep me sane. And if you don't think you've kept me sane, ummmmmmmmmmmm did I eat you? (Except for Korey. He keeps me a few steps away from being pretty much sane and patient. But he does make a good mixed doubles buddy and doesn't suck at tennis.)

I just can't get over it.

Y'know? Lately it's been all I can think about. What's changed this year and what's changed, undoubtedly, for the better. And so on. And so forth. And how odd it will be... to be at the high school and being the "under-underclassmen" again. So much change... and just when things seemed to become stable.

Summer.

I'm staying with my dad for a month. (as always.) Then it'll be time for Driver's Ed when I get back. I'd say be afraid. Be very, very, very afraid.

365.

I'm going to give it a go, starting June 4th. I don't know how long I'll last, but damn if I won't give it my best. Hopefully it'll get me thinking and creative again. (I'm scoffing at myself in my head. 'Yea, right. You've given up on all the past things that are supposed to make you "creative again." Duh.' ) Well, it's worth a shot, and if it's not successful, oh well. Have some wasted vanity. :]

I suppose.

That's all I have to say. I think, in retrospect, it's been a good year. (...but I'll take that back when EOCs roll around.)

until then

aidyn xxoo